Flaws.

I have been thinking a lot about flaws. Mainly because I have been especially harder on myself lately concerning the flaws I possess. They definately are a big part of us,and I believe they can be humbling and make us stronger, want to improve ourselves daily. It is wonderful when we can find people that love us no matter what, but disappointing and sometimes heartbreaking when those pull themselves away and find fault with us for who we are, and you full knowing the flaws they possess but don't care. Such is life I guess, all part of the play.

Sometimes I....

-care too much about what people think
-Torture myself mentally & emotionally, only for the sheer moment of nostalgia/satisfaction
-Rough around the edges-primarily in the workplace
-Overjudgemental
-Set impossible standards for others to meet
-Get overly annoyed when things don't go way may (specifically with social activities & gatherings with groups of people)
-Make myself overly nervous that affects my performance (presentations, performing, etc)
-Trust others way too easily
-Jealousy of others for no apparent reason
-Paranoia & overanalyzation, these two often work together.
-Feel incomplacent with where I am in life, even though I love what I doing, am financially secure, and have many blessings. This might be the biggest struggle I am currently dealing with...ALWAYS in a battle with myself. I need to be ok with just "being."

I know some of these will be with me forever.

But in the meantime, I continue to work on them....