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I don't usually post only a few hours after my last, but I feel compelled to do so at the moment. I am incredibly pensive today. I also have no appetite, I am fidgety, and I am restless. I know the weather doesn't help, I am thinking this week starts the month long Muncie rain/gloomfest that we had last Spring. I also just had to change my Pandora station from Ray LaMontagne to Mozart because the Ray songs were making me think of things I shouldn't be thinking about and I should be trying to avoid. So much is going on at work and I don't feel like I have the time for anything. My mind keeps going into where I was at this time last year, freaking out, looking for jobs, finishing classes, excited for opportunities to come, having amazing times with my cohort, making new friends, and falling in way over my head in so many ways. uggh anxiety.

I am going to have some tea, I think.